My Day-To-Day Photos

 I feel lonely at Christmas now, because Tucker isn't there. What is it going to be like if both Jared and KK can't be there. I don't know, but the Caribbean sounds good.  Fucking Covid and all its  bullshit. 

 We finally bit the bullet and bought a Nintendo Switch. We're downloading a game called Spalunky first. This is most likely to eat up our holidays. 

 We all decorated the tree this year. I really wish I got a good Christmas picture of Bear. Once decorating is done it usually feels very cozy, but with Bear gone, there is too much room, and so not all that cozy. After Bear passed on the 11th, we were devastated, and so we immediately adopted another puppy.  We all fell in love with him the first day. As wonderful a dog as Fritz is, we decided to give him back. Puppies require a lot of attention.  I'm too stressed to to handle just about anything right now,  and Todd has been dealing with a lot. So, we had to make a difficult  choice, and we chose to give Fritz back.  But, the story ends up with a very happy ending. We were very lucky to find out that he'd be going to an acreage to live with a family that has four young children.  Yay! And the stress levels dropped as soon as we made the decision.   But we're  not going to forget Fritz. Ever. His short time with us made an imprint on al...

 My room had a seriously ugly ceiling fan. On our visit to Edmonton, we stopped by Ikea, and this basket light cost next to nothing. The light bulb is pretty fancy too and gives off the coziest light and pattern on the ceiling. 

 It should be said that I'm going through a terrible time in my life. I'm not the person I want to be.  Not the Mother I want to be and that is what is weighing on my mind.  If only medicine for mental health was black and white, but it is not. It's a lot of gray areas and guesswork. I think I may have to go into the hospital again. I hate that, but I hate how I'm feeling right now, more than being on Pine Unit.

 Our sweet Bear passed away on December 11th. His ending was quiet and gentle,  just like he was.  The very next day, there was an adoption day at Pet Valu. So now we have Fritz.  I knew I couldn't allow myself to dwell on Bear too much, I can't afford to allow myself to sink deeper into depression.

 ...and he loves it!