Changes

 One of the excellent things about being in my bed all day is that I get to enjoy the company of my cats.  When they do things like snuggle each other, it melts my heart.

My health is finally, noticeably getting better. I've noticed a major decrease in the 'brain zaps." I'm able to eat more now and my nausea is taking a backseat. It's still there, but I'm managing.  Today I spent my entire morning out of bed and even went out for breakfast. The food at Humpty's is always tasty, but their furnace was out, so we ate our meal in 10 degrees in our parkas. 

There's been a lot of bad news this week.  Actually, all of the news came in yesterday. Cousin Tom Ostapovitch  passed away. Then Jared told us that both Sophie's Grandfather and Father passed away within a week of each other. "Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you when you think everything is ok." - Alanis Morissette 

Anything goes. Death does not discriminate, doesn't sort out whether or not someone has had enough grief in the moment. I do not believe in the phrase - God won't give you more than you can handle. Think about that phrase for a moment.  Then, if you can, ask yourself about all the souls that felt the need to take their own lives. 

My depression was far more than I could handle. I lived, but that was just a happy accident. I cannot believe in a God that would dish out that kind of torture and wait to see if you can handle it or not. Nope. Life is a roll of the dice. It has nothing to do with God's choices for us. All God does is receive us with open arms when we reach our breaking point.