My Day-To-Day Photos

I wasn't going to address this topic here, but to try and ignore it would only add to the stigma and that will serve no one. Since being diagnosed with severe depression/anxiety at the end of April, I've been struggling to find my way to a path that will lead to healing. Medications are there to help, but at first complicate things and I am still at nearly the beginning of that process. The two biggest challenges I'm facing in this moment are first, making space to be alone so as to gain a better understanding of myself and second, being compassionate with myself. These are both foreign concepts to me. In the meantime, life carries on and I find good moments in among the difficult ones. A thing to celebrate is the garden that I fixed up in our firepit area. I didn't break my back doing it, and had enough energy to make a fire in the afternoon and sit and listen to music for hours. We even had a wiener roast when Kaitlynn got home from work. Bear Oh Bear... ...

It was a cold morning. Cold for June that is. Five degrees with a fairly strong wind that made it feel barely above freezing. But determined to start my day out with a positive, I slapped my headphones on, and out I went. There were even a few raindrops, but the fresh air was energizing. Of course, Bear enjoys walking in cooler weather far more than the heat. We were out for a lot longer than we normally would because Bob and Bruce stopped for a chat and then Bob stopped again after dropping Bruce off. The highlight of this walk were the Lady's Slippers. I haven't seen them in years, so it was a special sighting. These are considered a rare flower, so this a noteworthy glimpse of an uncommon plant.

It is the perfect day for blogging a wee bit about the past several days. Yesterday, I got the yard looking it's finest by doing the trimming and mowing. Day before that it rained, and today it rained again, and is threatening more thundershowers this afternoon. And I'm tired. I worked hard yesterday to see the yard completed, but I think the real culprit of my fatigue is the ice cream cone I ate just before bed last night. I never sleep well on a full stomach, let alone a stomach full of sugar. Lesson learned? - Probably not.  With the freshness of the rain and all of the blossoms on the lilacs, caragana and fruit trees, the air outside is intoxicating. You start to take a breath in through your nose, and when you catch the scent, don't want to stop inhaling. One could damn near explode their lungs with the desire. The early morning walks to the pond with Bear are a joy. Life is overflowing there with all of the different birds peeping their little hearts when we get ...

May has arrived, and it's been nearly a month since I last posted here. Life hasn't been easy lately, but losing nearly an entire month seems unlikely and unreasonable. The weather has been decent lately, and that has me feeling a little better. I especially love my long morning walks with Bear before breakfast. Often, that's when it's the most peaceful outside, low winds, hardly any vehicles making noise on the roads. Quiet. Also, I've been in my greenhouse lately and that is another of solitude for me. I made it even better by adding a little place to have tea. I don't know why I didn't think of that sooner. A few crocuses are up in the garden, along with a gazillion daylilies. I really have to start finding new homes for them. I had my first wood tick yesterday. Disgusting. Field work has started on the farm, and I will try not to let that add to the stress of the current situation. Just day by day, one foot in front of the other. I'm beginning to un...

We've been out enjoying the warm patch of weather before it cools back down again in a couple of days. Bear is especially appreciative of having access to water everywhere we go. Our two temporary ponds have connected enough that I can't walk between them with my everyday winter boots anymore. We don't have much snow, so unless we get some serious rain, the water will disappear quickly.

It was snowing and blowing out bushels of fun when I woke up this morning. Bear doesn't have the good sense to go into his house to stay dry. It is very likely he was too warm as he is now sporting a full winter coat.  I shovelled the driveway this morning, but Jared went out again mid-afternoon to clean up what had blown back on.  Winds are at 60km/hr today. Blech!